My Life of What Ifs

Monday, April 26, 2010

Music Memory Monday - uncharted territory

My music memories are entering uncharted territory.  They are my memories, but they are from long ago important parts of my life and it can seem odd to post them here when I am happily married and in a very different place than I was 20 years ago.  But I guess that's the fun in all of this, and bloggers are bloggers for this very reason.  We have something to share, and apparently nothing to hide.

Slip Of The Tongue

A second chance

Four months before my highschool graduation I met my first real love. Not a crush, although I excelled at those, but a true connection that was like nothing I had ever experienced. We met through mutual friends and hit it off immediately and were soon spending every moment together. He was a year older and attending community college and therefore had fewer rules than I did, but we managed to sneak moments here and there. But my feelings were getting the best of me and the more intense we became the more I wanted to run. So, run I did. About 6 weeks after we began dating I went to Florida for Springbreak. A co-worker who I had been crushing on long before I met my boyfriend was staying at the same hotel and one thing led to another and when I returned from Florida I never called the boyfriend, and oddly enough he never called me either. I'm pretty sure he knew before I left for Florida that we were done.
Obviously, as one could have predicted things didn't work out with the co-worker crush. But I was ok, graduation was quickly approaching and the urgency to spend time with friends before we all headed in different directions was more than enough to fill my time. But as soon as the diploma was in my hand and summer was in full force I found myself thinking more and more about my ex. As I said, we had friends in common so it wasn't odd to hear what he was up to, luckily we never ran in to each other, until July.

I had been thinking a lot about our 6 weeks together, and rightfully so. During that time I had given him something I had been saving for almost 18 years, and I was pretty sure he didn't realize he was my first. Because I can't let things go, I had to write him so that he knew the full reason of why I freaked out and never called him again. Several of my friends were dating his friends so it wasn't hard to get the letter delivered. But I had guessed I would hear from him immediately and I didn't.

But July came around and the summer parties out in the farm fields of Jackson were in abundance and I finally ran into him. The minute we saw each other we were together again, talking and rehashing what had gone wrong in our brief time together. He apologized for not realizing the significance of what we shared and we talked, and talked, and talked, on the hood of my car.

It wasn't long after that we first heard Whitesnake's The Deeper The Love and declared it our song. Despite our age and the brevity of the first chapter in our relationship, we found our way back to each other. And despite what we had put each other through we felt that we were better for it.

An the deeper the love
The stronger the emotion,
An the stronger the love
The deeper the devotion

We were good together for almost another 2 years, but alas my young heart needed to see what else was out there and I let him go, but he holds a place in my heart that is tied to so many firsts, and when I hear this song I am reminded of some very special times in my life.

Friday, April 23, 2010

The BABIES are coming!!!!!!

I'm am  so excited to see this film!!!  Next week I will be participating in a conference call with the director!  Stay tuned for all the cool behind-the-scenes deets!!!!!


Wednesday, April 21, 2010

And the winner is...

The winner of the family 4 pack to Day Out with Thomas is...

Comment #7!!!

Send me an email at swanngirlz (at) gmail (dot) com with your name and date you want to attend!

Congrats and thank you all!

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

The tale of the neglected blog

Yes, you've been neglected.  Yes, I feel guilty about it.  No, you haven't called or written to me either, but I'm conditioned to be the one who feels bad about it, not you.  The longer we are apart, the higher my anxiety level rises.  Yes, it would be easier to stay in better touch, but my life is not my own.  It belongs to three other humans and two dogs who live in my house.  Oh and if my paying work gets nutty my blogging goes by the wayside.  Can you guess how the paying work has been going?

Anyway, enough with the apologies.  I love you all and want you to keep stopping by for reasons other than an occasional contest.  Tomorrow is my birthday.  I will blog and announce the Thomas winner.  That is my birthday gift to you all.  What did you get me?

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Win tickets to a Day Out with Thomas at Greenfield Village!

I know many of you have children that love them some Thomas!  I've seen the train tables and other paraphernalia in your homes.  I've seen you enjoy the program with the help of George Carlin, Alec Baldwin and even Ringo Starr.  So now with my help you can take your lovely little offspring to see the real thing at Greenfield Village...

All aboard for the best birthday party ever! Thomas the Tank Engine™ is coming to town to celebrate with all of his fans. Thomas, the beloved and courageous storybook engine, is set to roll into Greenfield Village for the Day Out With Thomas™: The Celebration Tour 2010, presented by HIT Entertainment, a worldwide leader in children’s entertainment, and sponsored by MEGA Brands, a leading toy company.

This fun-filled event offers preschoolers and their families the opportunity to take a ride with a 15-ton replica of Thomas the Tank Engine, star of the popular Thomas & Friends™ series. Children will ride along with their favorite hero on his latest adventure. The tour, now in its 15th year, will make stops in more than 45 US cities and is expected to welcome more than one million passengers in 2010. This year also marks Thomas the Tank Engine’s 65th publishing anniversary and fans are invited to partake in some choo choo-riffic celebratory activities!

WHO: Thomas the Tank Engine

  • A 25-minute (approximate) ride with Thomas the Tank Engine
  • An opportunity to meet Sir Topham Hatt, Controller of The Railway 
  • Activities for the whole family, including arts & crafts, storytelling, video viewing, live music, a magician, puppet shows and much more
  • A special display at every DOWT location celebrating 65 years of Thomas the Tank Engine
  • 2010 commemorative merchandise and giveaways, including a mini-view finder giveaway that tells the story of Thomas’ upcoming adventure, Misty Island Rescue
WHEN: April 23-25, April 30, May 1-2 and May 8-9, 2010

TIME: 9:30 a.m.-5 p.m.

WHERE: Greenfield Village, 20900 Oakwood Boulevard, Dearborn, MI
Tickets for Day Out With Thomas: The Celebration Tour 2010 are on sale now and available by calling Ticketweb toll-free 866-468-7630, or by visiting or Ticket prices are $18 for members of The Henry Ford, ages 2 and up. Non-member tickets – which include admission to Greenfield Village – are $40 for adults, $39 for seniors (ages 62 and up), $34 for youth (ages 5-12) and $18 for children (ages 1-4).

For more information and directions contact The Henry Ford at (313) 982-6001 or visit For information on Thomas & Friends, visit


One lucky winner will receive 4 free tickets to attend a Day Out With Thomas™: The Celebration Tour 2010 at Greenfield Village! The winner will be notified via email and will need to respond within 24 hours or a new winner will be chosen.

To enter for a chance to win, you are required to do the following two things. Make sure to leave a comment for each entry requirement:

  1. Become a follower of My Life of What Ifs either by RSS, Facebook Networked Blogs, Google Connect, Blogger Follow, or any other way and leave me a post telling me how you follow!
  2. Leave a comment on this post telling us who you would take to see Day Out With Thomas™: The Celebration Tour 2010 and why they would love to attend!
No purchase necessary to enter. Winners will be selected randomly through Entries that do not follow all of the entry requirements will not be considered. Open to participants in the US and Canada 18 years and older. Contest ends April 20, 2010 at 11:59:59 p.m. EST.

Disclosure: I was provided with complimentary tickets to Day Out With Thomas™: The Celebration Tour 2010 to give away and to attend. The opinions expressed in this post are mine and mine alone and are not influenced in any way by anyone.