My Life of What Ifs

Sunday, May 31, 2009

Cop Out Post

I saved these two postcards from Post Secret a week or two back. In lieu of a real post I choose to post these. They are important because they spoke to me. The first one I would like to believe was posted for me, and for my writing. Even when I don't believe in myself I hope there is at least one person out there who believes in me and what I will accomplish before I leave this beautiful earth.

The next postcard is just another example of my dramatic side. Even with all I am blessed to have, the teenage girl in me still hopes there is someone out there secretly thinking of me.

I promise something real soon. As soon as I am inspired enough to come up with something original. Or is that my excuse for not posting?

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Sharing due to neglect

I am behind. In everything. Today is the seventh day in a row I've worked, and I'm not complaining about that, as I am happy to have work. But everything else is a little neglected including my beloved blog. I hate not writing. It's been brought to my attention how much happiness I get from a blog post, a journal entry, or a writing assignment. So after my seventh day of work I hope to post something really good :)

But for now I want you to watch this from the season (series?) finale of Scrubs which I was finally able to watch last night. I love this song and if the show is over I will miss this show.

The book of love is long and boring
And written very long ago
It's full of flowers and heart-shaped boxes
And things we're all too young to know

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Still Crazy

I heard this song while I was at work today. I haven't heard it in so long, and I don't think I've ever really listened to the lyrics. Anyway, I love it and I wanted to share.


Sunday, May 17, 2009

My Loves

This weekend Cory's younger sister was married in a beautiful ceremony. Cory and I have been together so long that when I met Sarah she was a mere 4 years old.

Now she is 21 and starting a new chapter in her life. I took quite a few pictures this weekend, but am only going to share three of them. They are pictures of the three most important people in my life. I don't consider myself a pro, but these are some darn fine photos of some darn lovely people.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Half of a year

Today is my sixth month anniversary. I don't mean to sound like a broken record, but holy hell, six months have passed since I walked out of that window office, and what a journey it has been.

Today my third article was published in the newspaper, and I spent seven hours surrounded by beautiful flowers working my butt off.

Tonight I sit here and think about the last six months and can't even begin to list the emotions I have felt, the tasks I have accomplished, the changing I have done. I am a different person than I was six months ago, but I am the same person I was many years ago. I am someone who smiles at opportunities and calls her Mom to ask "what page am I on today?" I am someone who does not dread Mondays. I am someone who sleeps soundly, and who feels true, earned exhaustion. I am someone who feels blessed that her risks are starting to pay off, and I am proud to say I took a chance on me and it was worth every tear, stomach ache, and second of panic.

I now know the answer to the question "What if I hadn't quit my job?" It's simple really. I wouldn't be as happy as I am right now, and that is all the answer I need.

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Isn't it Ironic (Don't ya think?)

That me, with the self-esteem of a slug, subjects herself to midnight newspaper deadlines that ensure my sleep will be anything but peaceful tonight?

I mean, seriously. I cover a school board meeting from 7 - 9:30, drive home while listening to my tapes, and then submit a story that I had basically written by 11 at midnight because I had to keep tweaking it and tweaking it until I was certain it was the biggest piece of crap ever composed.

Now I'm going to play on facebook and keep refreshing my email until my eyes pop out of my head just in case my editor writes to compliment me on the biggest piece of crap he's ever read.

And I opted out of advertising six months ago tomorrow why?

Thursday, May 7, 2009

Follow Me

I "borrowed" this fantastic picture off of a freelance writing blog I read. I think it's hilarious. I drink coffee because I think I need caffeine and I don't drink "pop" anymore (yes, I'm from the Midwest). But it is a miracle what an extra shot of espresso in your mocha can do for your to-do list.

The one below is a copy of something that used to hang in my office when I worked in the corporate world. I proudly hung it on the bulletin board by my phone, it made listening to raving agents a little easier.

I love it when I find vintage looking graphics with ironic messages. It just goes to show how "back in the day" you could sell anything, including cigarettes, by showing a smiling person in the ad.

I've been busy lately, working a lot of hours at the greenhouse and loving it. Sleeping better than I have in years, which I'm sure it due to the physical energy I am burning every day. I'm also starting my third assignment for the newspaper. It's my regular beat, a school district, yay! My feelers are out for additional freelance writing work, but I am treading lightly so I don't spread myself too thin. Some days I get home and I feel like I've been gone forever.

So I think you should all become "followers" of my blog. You can do that at the top of the page or on the side, I would really appreciate it! I am trying to blog regularly but I am also trying to set my routine as I return full force into the working world. I hope you all have a wonderful Thursday.

Friday, May 1, 2009

What a Day

Today is a fantastic day.

It probably seems odd to hear that from me doesn't it? But today is the day that my risks are really starting to pay off. Today is the day that I can check something off my life's to-do list. Today my first article was published in a newspaper. I can't stop smiling.